Merry Freaking Christmas

So Christmas is not coming to my house this year. My tree is in the basement, the lights are still in the boxes. I didn't even open the ornament holder. My family is far across the country this year as they have been for the past 6 years. I sent out about half my holiday cards but have no desire to send the rest. I'll get to them sometime in January I guess.

I bought Christmas presents for my Mom, a friend, my Captain, and my brother. I didn't know what to get my Dad so I didn't get him anything.

I change the radio station when a Christmasy song is played. I've been watching the holiday and Christmas movies on Lifetime when nothing else is on, but I just have no holiday spirit this year. I have received a few Christmas presents in the mail, wrapped all pretty. They are still in the box because I don't even have the desire to open them. I'll do it on Christmas, I guess. I tried this year, but it just wouldn't come to me.

I don't feel like celebrating this year. It's hard to celebrate when you feel like you're losing everything. I know that this slump won't last forever, but I hate feeling this way. I just want to be back into the rhythm of life. I think I may walk to church tomorrow night. I have nothing else to do and I always loved Christmas Eve services. Maybe it will help me refresh my mind and remember what this season is truly about.

I used to love Christmas, when I wasn't alone. I went all out with a tree, lights, ornaments. Wrapped presents under the tree, holiday scented candles, cheery music on the radio; the whole 9 yards. There is no one here to appreciate it except me, and I frankly don't care this year.

I'll be back to my regular blogging about gross paramedic stuff after the holidays are over, I promise. Until then, you get the randomness of my daily thoughts.

Merry Freaking Christmas everyone!

10 Random Facts EMS Style

Well, I tried to keep it in the EMS style but it was HARD!!! Now it's your turn. How would you answer these questions?

10 RANDOM FACTS
1. I prefer text messaging to voicemail.
2. I multi task well.
3. I can get orders for just about anything from Dr. L.
4. I love my firefighters, I'd do anything for them.
5. I make the cot the same way every single time. I even go out of my way to fix it.
6. I crank up the stereo on the way to calls, especially bad ones.
7. I can see through most drug seekers.
8. I hate cheesy medical drama shows, but I still watch them anyways.
9. I hate working with incompetent people.
10. I don't like fake people.

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1. Offer to help lift the cot.
2. Bring me coffee, it is the liquid of life!
3. Understand that I don't wake up until about 10 AM.
4. Know when I need you to just listen.
5. Hold me while I cry about a patient that I lost after trying hard to save them.
6. Ask when you don't know how to do something, I promise that I won't get mad.
7. Tell me the truth, even if it's not what I want to hear.
8. Offer to be take the groping old man so I don't have to.
9. Call me and let me know that you are there for me.

8 THINGS I CARRY EVERYDAY
1. Cell Phone
2. Stethoscope
3. ID Badge
4. Wallet
5. My coupon binder
6. Diet Coke
7. Travel Coffee Mug with lots of coffee
8. Glasses

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
1. Backstabbers
2. Ignorance
3. Unemployment
4. People who interrupt me
5. Being so far away from my family
6. Not knowing who to trust
7. Short people with a complex

6 STATES I'VE VISITED
1. California
2. Arizona
3. Florida
4. Minnesota
5. Illinois
6. Michigan

5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Be debt free
2. Become a flight medic
3. Be respected in my field
4. Go back to school and finish my degree
5. Organize my life

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
1. Failing at life and love
2. Being alone for the rest of my life
3. Making mistakes
4. Hurting those I love

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
1. Send and receive Email
2. Try to thank God for the blessings that I have
3. Write

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
1. Let my current situation get me down
2. Get depressed

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
1. My Mom. Or my Mamas. You know who you ladies are.

Nifty little web based toy

I found this on another blogger's blog site:

My Mini City

It is so cool! Kinda like the sim games that were popular in the 90's, although much more simplistic and not as complicated. So you click on the link and it takes you to my online mini city, "Deeville". Each time someone clicks on the link, it adds a new resident to the population and eventually your people get jobs and families and it looks neat.

Yes, I know that this has nothing to do with being a paramedic but I needed a little humor in my life and I thought that this was cool.

Plus, it's my damn blog. I can write about whatever I want to....

Take 5....Tag you're it!

5 things found in my purse
Stethoscope, calendar-planner, industrial sized bottle of Ibuprofen, glasses, ink pen

5 things found in my wallet
Driver's License, state Paramedic License and all the ABC certs (CPR, PALS, NRP, ACLS, etc), health insurance card, medic alert card, money (credit card/cash)

5 things found in my room
In my living room currently:
Laptop, cats, cell phone, piles of mail and other paperwork I desperately need to go through, coffee cup with the liquid of life in it

5 things I've always wanted to do
Learn photography, have enough time to organize my house, volunteer more, learn about our county and state politics, begin an intensive paramedic review--for personal reasons

5 things I'm currently into
Trying to stay warm during the winter, learning about blogging and trying to grasp HTML, serving my coworkers as our Local's Union President, attempting to get motivated, looking hard at my life to see where I royally f$#%ed up.


Feel free to steal this and add it to your own blog with your top 5.

Car Wreck

On duty today.....I hope that things are mellow today. I truly don't feel much like working today.

I was driving to an appointment yesterday, going a route that I don't usually travel and came upon a car wreck involving an 18 wheeler and an older model station wagon full of people. Looks like the 18 wheeler lost control on the wet roads and t boned the other vehicle, causing it to roll over several times. Thank God everyone in that vehicle was buckled in or they all probably would have been ejected--especially the 3 little ones in the back seat.

It's strange to be the first one on the scene when I'm off duty. I don't usually stop because by the time I pass the accidents, there is usually law enforcement, EMS, and the FD already there. Thankfully, I didn't have to do anything really, other than help calm down the kids and Mom. Once EMS got there, I gave report to the crews and helped them get everyone loaded up and then I went on my merry way.

It poured here yesterday, we really needed the rain but I hate driving in it. It was so bad at one point that I about needed to pull over because the visibility was so low.

If there is anything that you my readers would like me to blog about, send me a message and let me know!

Have a safe day and be careful.

Please keep "Alex" and his family, especially his uncle in your prayers today.